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To make thing's worst, I got a complain from a customer because I failed to deliver a good service by giving her a chair while waiting for the film to be processed. I admit it. IT WAS MY FAULT. That time I was not sure whether taking the chair from the dark room will solve the problem. It never come across my mind that time. I was so busy worrying the final product of the image than the patient.
I feel bad for the radiologist and the other staff who have to apologise on my behalf. That lady really make a great show out of it. What a bitch! Today is also the same. There is no need for you to worry about your dear father getting exposed by radiation. I bet sooner or later he needs to take another X-Ray since he got scoliosis. Afterall, you won't get cancer getting exposed twice! Between us and your father, we the radiation workers are at risk the most damnit!!!!!! Shit, thanks a lot for making my almost perfect day spoiled.
I hope while your father is hospitalized, the doctor will request to do more X-Ray so that I can expose more radiation to him. What a twerp. If the time has come, we will die whether we like it or not. Damn bitches. =(
- Mood:
enraged
I'm soo scared and nervous. Didn't touch my book for months and now I have to read in just 4 days! I'm scared!!!!
- Mood:
nervous
Pretty much lost in reading books right now except it's English novels and not books related to my course. I need to read up before i enter the workforce. Will i be able to adapt ? I don't know. My life is still full of doubts.
Sometimes I feel that I am still not ready for this but until when exactly? The biggest fear would be the inability to perform.
I was surprised with people around me saying that I am some sort of genius. In fact, I am not. Throughout the three years of study. I guess I didn't progress much compared to my class mates. I still remember one of them told me that you should be lucky you got a scholarship and mentioned that I am so obsessed with marks. I probably am. But I have to admit, I was never satisfied with my work. And will never be.
I am grateful to be granted a scholarship but of course, the output must be good isn't it? Am I being too hard on myself? Probably.
But in the end I still believe that learning is like a journey. You might grasp some of knowledge while you're in a pit-stop but it might not always be in a complete form. The journey is still long for me. A long way to go....
And yet I will never feel sorry for myself for not being satisfied with what I have achieved. It's just that I want to accomplish something in life that will make me and my family proud. At least something that will make me appreciate myself and life more since I lost the nature of self-appreciation back in high school.
Extreme pressure... it kills. I have to admit the students are gifted but the system, the mentors are being injustice to the ordinary students like myself. In the end, people like me were neglected by them. I love college. People are more sensible than school.
- Location:PJ
- Mood:
bored
But, today I hate it because I saw the other side of them. The way they work is considered depressing I tell you. Being rude to the patient is one thing I hate the most.
What is the purpose of scolding patient who doesn't even know what's going on? Why do you have to rush things up? Lumbosacral only took less than 5 minutes;actually even less. Just give the instruction properly la. I mean come on, It's only AP and Lateral. You're not doing multiple parts. And it's not even 5 yet! What is the difference anyway if you come back home half an hour late? the road is still going to become jammed up sooner or later. They never think of the patient, I tell you. Only them.
God, I hate government hospitals. I'm starting to hate people too when I'm there for 2 weeks. What a shitty experience. If this is the way a radiographer behave, I don't think I want to become a part of it. These people cannot be called as a professional. We don't deserve the title YET. There's still a long way to go I suppose.
- Mood: angry
- Location:Room
- Mood: irritated
It's stressful and I really hate the fact that I have to commute using Monorail for the next three weeks... *gasp* But they improve a lot compared to last year. Staff with attitude problem are still there... I only detect two. Still working on finding other "attitude" staff. Sometimes I don't get it why they work there. They don't really look like an allied health professional if you know what I mean...
Next week I'm working at A&E. God knows what will happen there. I'm still wondering. I'm just preparing how to overcome the humiliation after scolding... LOL. 3 weeks more..... It's kinda long....
- Location:Bed Room
- Mood: bored
- Music:Stargazer-Spitz
Frankly speaking, I have to admit I'm not an exam-oriented person. Whatever the lecturer explains, I need some sort of a graphic example of it. I don't mind reading because reading is what i like to do but understanding is not easy. God, exams are depressing. For once I really want to get 4 flat in everything.. at least once. I don't mind if they didn't give notes but the main idea must be well presented. Sometimes I wonder how Mr. Chan did it... he's like a messiah you know... he's teaching method is world-class. Very well explained and presented. It's hard to find a good teacher like that nowadays. Some people are intelligent, but when it comes to teaching skill, they failed MISERABLY. I was hoping that they change the lecturers.... for good.
- Location:Room.
- Mood: frustrated
- Music:Cosmic Girl- Jamiroquai
You know, since I was in my school days I've been seing many people with different personalities and attitude. Most of the people I met throughout my whole life are pleasant and nice but that doesn't mean i didn't met some people who are just plain irritating and pathetic at the same time.
Heh... seems like I'm trying to condemn someone right? Well, try and make your own conclusion about it. ;)
Well, where was I? Oh yes..
Sometimes people act recklessly without thinking because they couldn't find any fault with their actions. Other reason in my opinion would be that there's no one around them who would say "no" to their actions. Family background/upbringing and friends also affects people's behaviour/attitude.
I've seen this type for the past... well 5 years everyday... 24/7 so, to tell you the truth even I don't understand their reason. I suppose everyone have different needs? Or maybe they are those kind of people (materialistic ) who prefers the easiest way to live a luxurious life by doing something stupid and dangerous.. who knows?
Tom Hanks used to say ( I read it in the newspaper) that humans are the most complex creatures. We can never understand their behaviour.Well, Tom Hanks you got that right! I'm not an expert on this matter but all I have to say is you have to choose your own path whether it's good or bad. Other people can only give advice and guidance but everything depends on you. But still there are some who choose the wrong path and end up facing the not so beautiful consequences.. It's a fact. An ugly fact. After all, it's a dog-eat-dog world out there... and people can backstab you anytime they want. But that's the kind of life they choose... so let them be!
Like i give a damn. :P
- Location:Somewhere in PJ
- Mood:
apathetic - Music:Naveed - Our Lady Peace
I wonder if Stage6 have Darker Than Black episode 14-17? I'm so left behind with the story. T_T
Downloading the anime will be the last resort for me. At the time being, I prefer watching it on the internet.
- Mood:
chipper
Speaking of anime, it's hard to watch it online since Youtube is trying to delete all the anime videos in their page. Other websites like Stage6 and Veoh is one of the best option but the connection is just too slow. I think I already miss at least 7 episodes of Darker Than Black anime and I was hoping to watch Code Geass in the net but I couldn't find any. Code Geass looks interesting but downloading it is a real pain... T_T
Last Friday I read Gunslinger Girl vol 6 which I downloaded from a community page. The first half of the story was quite nice, about Rico and Jean and the 2nd one is abour Henrietta and Jose. But I began to lose interest after the second half of the book when they introduce a new character named Petrushka. God, I don't like Alessandro at all. His not like the other handlers which in my opinion fares better than him. What's with the bad boy attitude?
The second half is more about Petrushka and Alessandro which doesn't interest me at all. I want to see the original characters in action not Petrushka and Alessandro!! >_<
- Location:In front of the PC
- Mood: calm
- Music:apparently, none.
Tomorrow Tn. Hj is going to make a short test on Instrumentation. I dunno how the question will be like but I hope I can pull it through.... Semester 4 is going to be damn tough and even now trying to understand the subject is tough. I'm sick of complaining about how sucky his teaching method is... so right now all I have to do is just keep my mouth shut and go with the flow... I just hope I can pass his subject with flying colours... T_T
- Location:In my room
- Mood: worried
- Music:The Birdman- Our Lady Peace
Livejournal is fun! =)
Time flies, isn't it? I just came back from college after listening to the most uninspiring, dry lecture ever... T_T
I hope other lecturer will replace the current one because he doesn't know how to make his students understand what he was trying to say during his lecture. I always have problem understanding the theory with him and thank god I only get B for the previous semester. Every subject tought by him will always be tough even though in reality it's simple.
I think the whole class didn't understand a single word he said just now including me. It's as if we're so new to the subject and didn't study. I did study his subject but alas, I can't recall. And next week he's going to make a test. Oh, my.... :(
- Location:Somewhere in PJ
- Mood: blank
- Music:Tsukiakari- Rie Fu
- Location:Somewhere in PJ
- Mood:
curious - Music:GRIND-Hideki
